Although it's hard to tell recently (thanks to a very old pc and a new incompatible WiFi connection) Be A Goddess had always been a fashion blog with ootd at its heart. Sharing my daily garb with every one has really increased my confidence these last 12 months. Living in a town (surrounded by many other towns) that is less then curtious towards my dress (which I will never understand) it's nice to share with others who appreciate it :)
It might not be entirely obvious but a lot of soul searching figured this year, and inspired by Megan and Paige I thought a end of year round up was the best way to show it. My outer appearance (shallow as it might sound) has always been the expression of who I am. I dress my outside to how I feel inside, so being uncomfortable in how I dress was the result of feeling uncomfortable inside.
January * Febuary * March
The beginning of the year it seemed I lived in my Ragged Priest Beanie (which I honestly have only noticed writing this), desperately growing my hair. Crop tops where almost a daily occurrence or shorter than short slip dresses. I had attended my first full LFW, made a TON new friends, and in my personal life was pretty content. About this time I was receiving a lot of trolling/hate (February I recieved an annon comment pretty much every post) almost all weight related, some over my eyebrows (jealousy) but honestly didn't care. I felt most confident then. Inspired by Pamola Faith I dyed a blond streak through my hair (obviously the start of her inspiring me). Almost everything I wore at this point was either vintage or thrifted.
April * May * June
About this time I started to feel extremely ill (something I played down on my blog) but pretty evident in what I was wearing. I pulled on the layers trying to keep warm. Looking back these are probably the best recieved outfits of the year on my blog, I was still showing off my legs but I had given up on my hair it seems choosing a messy bun nearly constantly (something my family loves). My blog photos really started to go up a gear. Thrifted clothes were joined with brands I loved for ages but never owned- such as my Mod Dolly pinafore and Nikki Lipstick Dollcult tee.
July * August * September
Mid year I completely lost myself, I know my blogging suffered and it was plain in my outfit choices. At 23 I thought I would have everything worked out for myself, being in a job I hate and spending a vast majority of 2013 sick (I actually missed days off work :0 ) I took it out on my appearance. These are probably the best of a bad bunch, the only thing of note I can say mid year is my sister getting married. My hair was almost completely forgotten (I didn't use straighteners for nearly 3 months) and I constantly questioned my style. I honestly questioned stopping blogging but I didn't want to lose the friends I made. The blond in my hair was dyed out. After being bitten alive mid in June which have scared my legs even today, I almost gave up with my appearance. My outfits where all "safe", "comfortable" and almost entirely normal. I didn't feel like me at all. People rarely stared at me in the street, the online hate disappeared but I hated my wardrobe.
I set myself challenges to try and keep myself blogging (something I'll be doing more of in 2014) and I spent more on clothes then I did at any other point in my life. At the sane point I really invested in clothes like my Dr Martens sandals, contacting Sara at Waiste for a custom pair of dungerees and my beloved Buffalo Boots I wore neatly constantly in September.
October * November * December
October I finally said goodbye to the ginger- the longest running hair colour I ever had. Returning to a less natural colour made me happy plus returning from Egypt, applying to uni and dying my hair made a big difference. I know it's silly but having purple locks made me feel like myself again- and I still feel like I have no style (really why do you guys read my blog). Finally these last few weeks I love my hair and take pride in styling it- something I haven't thought I would since saying goodbye to the pixie cuts. Having good hair really has made the biggest difference. I bought clothes I would never try, and styles I had always been afraid of as I felt more confidence in myself- like my custom smock from Rhiannon at Vintage Style Me and my New Look knee high boots.
December's look is the closest to feeling "normal" in months. Legs out, "grunge" but with a pin up edge. Maybe I have developed a style?
Next year is going to make up for lost time.